Tuesday, January 10, 2012

To My Sweet Precious Baby

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
People say I'm brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
through the coming years
I will carry you
All of my life
I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you.

I Will Carry You (Audrey's Song)- by Selah

Sunday, October 10, 2010

It's been a while...

Nope. I haven't posted in a LONG time. There's a lot that has happened lately, but I'll just let the pictures speak for themselves and tell the stories another time.



Doug's Camo Crew- Kidney Walk 2010
Ellison's post-bath hair



Just being silly


I swear. You cannot leave a kleenex box out around this girl,
or THIS will happen... EVERY time!


Peek-A-Boo!



How do you like my hair?




My little helper. My favorite is the combination of
underwear, slippers, and wristbands.





She's definitely my little girl. She LOVES cats!




Papa, Daddy, and Garrett fishing in Papa's pond.




Beautiful babes...

She's going to be a heartbreaker...




They both have some pretty big shoes to fill





Family pic at the Hudsonville Fair



Big brother helping little sister




Garrett's first roller coaster!!! Let's just say he didn't like it...




Garrett and his best friend Jude from his old daycare.




Ellison has a Daddy chair, and now has a big brother chair too!



I told Garrett that if he stayed dry/accident-free for 1 week, I'd make him a superhero cape.
I FINALLY got to make it for him! Everyone, meet G-FORCE!!!



Here's a random video of Ellison babbling in the bath tub... This girl LOVES to talk!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Happy First Birthday Ellison!

FINALLY! I got the video to load! I've been working on getting Ellison's Birthday video on Blogger, or Facebook, or Youtube for the last 4 days, and I finally got it to work! Whew!


We ended up having a little birthday celebration for Ellison this last Saturday to celebrate her first birthday! I can't believe how fast the time has gone! We just wanted to get everyone together for food and fun. We actually got to grill hamburgers and hot dogs, then opened presents and had cake and ice cream. Unfortunately, the cake didn't go over so well with Ellison. Even though she's had it before, everytime I put the frosting on her lips she started making a cough/gag noise.

I was hoping to do a great big post about her birthday, but my computer is not cooperating. I'll have to post pics on another post. But for now, here's the video I made of her first year!


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Trying times...

So not only have I not blogged lately or taken pictures, but I've had a very stressful run for the last month or so. I've recently started a new journey at work. My boss got promoted to her bosses job, thus leaving us without a manager for a while. Some of her duties got passed down to me, which at the time I was excited about the new challenge. Let's just say that those new duties haven't been very kind to me.

After the first two weeks, I was so stressed out that my body started to strike. I ended up with a migraine (my first one in years!) and cluster headaches for the rest of the week, then ended up with a cold on top of that. I'm still fighting off the cough, only to have to bring Garrett to the hospital TWICE yesterday.

He woke up at 2am Monday morning crying and coughing. He said he was going to throw up, and after rushing him to the bathroom, he did... twice. I assumed this was due to the coughing since he has a pretty sensitive gag reflex and tends to throw up when he coughs too hard. Even after I got him back in bed he still complained that his tummy hurt. I asked if he needed to throw up, and he said no. I asked if it hurt to cough, and he said yes. I thought he was just sore from coughing. But two hours later, he was still crying and coughing and wheezing/whistling. He was so short of breath he couldn't muster up enough air to cough, so he just whimpered instead. Doug got out the stethoscope and listened to his lungs, but didn't hear anything you couldn't already hear with your ears. We decided since he was in so much pain and so short of breath we should bring him to the ER.

Doug left with him at 5 am, and came home around 7. They did a chest x-ray and found he has pneumonia. They did a breathing treatment on him and sent him home with a prescription for antibiotics. Doug left again to go get the antibiotic filled, and I sat with Garrett on the couch. He started crying again, and was wheezing pretty bad. I was really angry that the ER doc didn't send him home with anything for his wheezing/shortness of breath, especially since the antibiotic takes 24-48 hours to help with the symptoms! What were we to do in the mean time?! So I called the ER and his PCP, both refused to call in a prescription unless he was seen again. Doug got home with the antibiotic, and he gave him a dose, only to have him throw it back up within 30 seconds. We waited 5-10 minutes and tried another dose. That one came back up too. At this point, I was so angry because I felt like the ER doc didn't do his job. Garrett was now so short of breath that his belly is inflating and deflating like a balloon, and he couldn't keep down his medicine. I got dressed, packed up Garrett's bag with extra clothes, and off to the ER we went, again.

After explaining that he were JUST there, they decided that he would have to stay overnight. They checked his oxygen levels and found that they were too low, and we had to put an oxygen tube in his nose. Then they did another breathing treatment. Since he failed to keep the oral antibiotics down, they decided they had to do IV antibiotics and fluids to rehydrate. Once his breathing was better, they did another chest x-ray to make sure the pneumonia didn't spread. When that came back okay, they decided to watch the oxygen levels again. After slowly titrating the oxygen down to nothing, he was able to keep it up on his own, so they decided discharge us that night and send us home with the nebulizer and medication so he could rest at home.

Once the IV antibiotics were done and they took out the IV, the nurse went to get the discharge papers while I changed Garrett into his clothes. I took of the gown and saw red splotches all over his upper chest and back. I called the nurse back in to make sure it wasn't an allergic reaction. It was. Since he's allergic to Penicillin, they gave him another medicine that is in the Cephalosporin family (kind of a cousin to Penicillin). There's about a 1 in 10,000 chance that if you are allergic to Penicillin, you will also be allergic to Cephalosporins too. Garrett is 1 in 10,000. So now we had to medicate him for that too. They gave him an oral steroid and some Benadryl for the reaction, but after the Benadryl, he vomited again... losing all medication that they just gave him. The nurse said that if he doesn't get it orally, he'll have to get shots. Garrett screamed because he didn't want the shots, but he also didn't want more medication. I told the nurse to do the S-H-O-T-S's because that's the only way to ensure he gets the medication. After giving him Zofran ODT (for the nausea), they got 3 nurses in there to administer the shots: 1 holding the legs, mom holding his arms, and 2 nurses each giving a shot at the same time. Garrett screamed, and I felt bad, but in the long run it was the right choice. He needed the medication and this was the only way to ensure it didn't come back up again.

Finally we were able to go home. I dropped off the necessary prescriptions on our way, then got Garrett home around 2pm. We made a nest for him on the couch and he fell asleep fairly quickly watching Little Einsteins. Garrett slept for 3& 1/2 hours AND slept through the night with no night wakings. Ellison luckily did the same. Mommy and Daddy got a full nights sleep too!

Today, you would never know that Garrett was in the hospital twice yesterday with pneumonia. He's been running around, playing with toys, getting the bad guys with his sword, and talk about YELLING! This kids doesn't know what an "indoor voice" is today! He even did his breathing treatment with laughter and smiles (while wearing the mask!). I don't know if its the continued steroids making him so hyper, but I'm just glad he's feeling better. He's been begging me to go outside, but I don't feel he should just yet.

I just hope Ellison doesn't get this...

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Under construction...

If you check my blog a lot and notice my backgrounds seem to change a lot, it because... it does. I just can't seem to decide on a beautiful background for my even more beautiful pictures... so beware... it'll change again!

Bad Mommy

I know. I've been bad. I said I'd update more on my blog, but I haven't kept my word. I feel like there's nothing really worth taking pictures of because we're stuck inside everyday. Garrett doesn't go outside much because 1) he gets cold really quickly, and 2) I can't really bring Ellison outside with me for extended play time with Garrett. Anywho, here are some pics that have been taken in the last few weeks:


All dolled up. She even has an EB bow in her hair!


Since Ellison sleeps in a pack 'n play in the laundry room, Garrett feels its his duty upon waking to go check on Baby Ellison. Usually this is how I find him... IN the pack n' play WITH her! He says, "She's awake Momma! I was just talking to her."

Always such a delight.

She almost has my Grandma Berdinski's eyes, though Ellison's are just a little darker.

I love the teeth! I always think getting teeth is a bittersweet moment. I love the gummy smile, and then once the teeth start to fill in, I love to toothy smile too!

So not really anything new to update. Garrett is being a typical defiant 3 year old, and Ellison is being an angel (usually). I've already started Ellison's birthday project (thanks EB for the inspiration!) so look for a special blog treat on April 10th!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Catch up already!

Whew! So the holidays are finally over, and I haven't blogged since mid-November. Here's a quick catch-up post of what's been going on:

Garrett and Ellison absolutely love each other. She loves to watch him and laugh at his crazy antics, and he loves to hug and kiss on her, and make sure she doesn't put yucky stuff in her mouth. We were watching a movie one night and Ellison was playing on the floor. Garrett just wanted to cuddle with her. And of course she loved it! She was grinning the whole time!
Now that Ellison is sitting up on her own and crawling, it's easier to put her in the bathtub. Both enjoy it. And Garrett especially like showing her how to play with the bath toys.
Our gingerbread house Garrett and I made one day. We didn't end up eating it because I wanted to wait to eat it at Christmas, but by then everyone was sick and throwing up. Finally when everyone was better, it was really stale and hard. But Garrett had fun making it, and that's all that matters.

One of Garrett's new Christmas presents was "Rub-A-Dub Dub Shaving In The Tub" kit from Grandma Pat and Papoose Papa. He loves to shave like Daddy, so now he has his own berry scented shaving gel, and plastic razor to use in the bathtub.
"Make sure you get your neck."

Just ONE of Garrett's favorite new toys... the Matchbox Pirate Ship! Not only does it roll on the floor, but it floats in the bathtub! And the Octopus squirts water, too!


And the birthday present that I had been planning for 2 months!!! Garrett's own fish tank! It's hard to see in this picture, but there are two Mollies, two Angelfish, and a Placo. We couldn't find a dragon to go with the castle, so Doug substituted a T-Rex and Triceratops ;)

Garrett's 3rd Birthday cake, made by Daddy!

The holidays combined with fevers and colds just wore Ellison out. Doug put her in the exersaucer for a minute so he could use the bathroom, and this was how he found her when he came back out. Poor tired Baby Girl!

And what movie wouldn't be complete without the best seat in the house... a dump truck?!

Now that everyone starting to feel better and the holidays and parties are over, I'm hoping to get back into blogging more and taking more pictures. I'll have to be on my toes though, because Ellison is now pulling up on furniture! Soon she'll be walking and I definitely don't want to miss those first steps!